New chemo port in. My mental being is almost ready. First chemo is Monday morning.
I so want to live fully again. I want to travel this great Country again and race anything and everything I can find.
I want to think I have 20 years left. I want to eat S'mores with Supernurse again on a mountain top in Montana.
I want to pet many more beautiful animals and see them wag their tails.
I want to feel some more adrenaline on a hare scramble course on my dirt bike. I want to walk around the FTR pits and see and talk with many friends I used to race with.
I am doing the best I can now. It will be in God's hands if whether I can still live me some more.
I miss my Brother Sim. I think of how fast he left us and did not get to say goodbye. It tears at my heart. He had such a good heart and he loved God.
I am not sure how these next weeks and months are going to go, but I do know that there will be some tough times. I ask of all my irrigation clients, whom I now refer to as my "friends with irrigation needs", to please work with me for the upcoming months. Allow Carl and Wendy a little extra patience in taking care of your irrigation needs. I appreciate every single one of you and hope you can stay with us until I can get back on my feet. I love you all for your past mental and financial support. That awesome help is keeping me in this crazy fight, and hopefully one I can win!
So, Monday the chemo battle begins. I will be ready to rock. Every prayer is very appreciated. Prayers make God smile and know he has believers in a world that is losing its focus on what is right and wrong.
If you are having a rough time, let me know if we can meet and talk. Tough times make tough people. We can get tough together. Anytime two or more people are together and bring God into the discussion, a Church service is then in progress. Let's have a service, as maybe it can help us both!
I have 4 days until liftoff. I am gonna cram in as much as possible while I still feel somewhat normal. I have to. This life is short. Too short to worry about things that do not really matter. Loosen up. Smile more. Laugh more. Get outside your comfort zone and try something new. Hug more. Touch more. Eat the ice cream. Get into shape. Drop the nasty habits. Limit your drinking. Don't smoke.
Make your goal each and every day to make the world just a little bit better. I do hope I have more time to do that.
I will be posting updates of this upcoming journey at my blog site at www.JonnyJpeg.com, if you care to follow.
Thanks everyone for all the overwhelming support. Without the energy that I get from all of you, this battle would be too much. I so thank you for this. You have no idea how your love, care, words, thoughts, prayers and financial help has carried me so far. I am forever in debt to each and every one of you.
I truly am, the lucky and fortunate one.
Peace and love to you all!
Jonny, the lover of life
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