I can't write much now. The dark fight is here. I'm no longer standing. I'm crawling to the finish line beat up, bleeding and miserable.
165 pounds now. Very tired. Can't walk more than a few minutes. Can't swallow. I ache all over. These are the times that one wants to give up and throw in the towel. It is the hardest thing I have ever known in my life. I am so ready for a thick veggie pizza at Uno's! 😊
All chemos are done now.
Only 3 radiations left to go out of 35
The worst thing is the constant stomach nausea. It is never ending. No matter the meds I take, it just stays with me.
With all I'm feeling right now, I know the end of this nightmare is in sight and I'm still going to fight it right up until I kick this evil and the devil out of this body. There is still no white flag in my bag! The only two flags I will fly is the American Flag and the Victory Flag! I truly am the lucky one.
I am going back to lay down and conserve my energy. I'm on my knees now crawling, but my hands are still punching and pulling to the finish. I'm closer than ever now.
Thanks everyone for your beautiful support. I do love you all!
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Brian and I are thinking of you and pulling for you. We are so impressed with the good fight and determination you have. It surely is excruciating - yet you continue - one day at a time. Congratulations on getting this far. You can see the end of those treatments so keep the faith that things will start to improve SOON! Take credit for your good fitness and health when you began this process. <3 We'll look forward to reading more when you are ready to share.
John we are beating on the gates of heaven for you with our prayers and giving GOD praise for the strength you have had in this fight. HE will never leave you or forsake. Heavenly Father in the name of Jesue I ask that the Holy Sprit cover John this day with abundant comfort, mercy and a peace that passes all understanding. Amen
😭😭😭praying for you! Your bravery, positive attitude and endurance will earn you the prize of remission for the rest of your days! I see it and feel it👍🏼😊