Well, my first (second round) of chemo was started yesterday, but I was surprised when I arrived at the infusion center at the hospital.
The entire nursing staff had beautiful pink Superman shirts on, just for me. They said when they had heard I was coming back, they knew I could use the uplifting when I arrived. I was completely overwhelmed by these beautiful people. They had to get special permission to wear these shirts.
God said hello to me when this happened and was saying hang on and keep fighting and that he will always be near me. This was something that was so special, that I will never ever forget it. I am one lucky guy, for sure!
The session went well. I must also wear a pump with me until Friday, that will be injecting this life saving poison into me until then. I guess it might be hard to jog....but I will do some kind of fast walking or something, to keep myself active and up to the task.
So, the first chemo is in progress and I still have a fighting chance. After 3 full chemo cycles, which is the halfway point, (9 weeks) we will do another petscan to see my status. This upcoming petscan will be so important.
I am asking everyone reading this to please close your eyes for just a few seconds and ask my God, Jesus or whomever you believe in to help me make it. My odds are 4 out of 10 now. They have dropped according to all of these situations like mine. 4 out of 10 is not the end, but it needs to improve. Please pray for me in any way you feel comfortable. I need all the help I can get now.
I am pretty scared, as to the odds being moved lower. I am scared about the darkness coming my way. I do fight the ups and downs many times each hour. It is so draining to my body, heart and soul. I pray to my God all day long, for comfort. He keeps my spirit up and encourages me to keep fighting with all I have against this devil's disease.
Today I feel good. I certainly will take it. 🙂
If anyone else out there, that is going through a rough time for whatever reason, and needs to talk to someone, I would love to help, if only just to listen. My advice is to reach out to someone to talk to and never ever give up on a miracle.
God is close by now and if it should end here, he will be there to judge me, not the devil. My advice is to deep pray for the things we have done wrong in this life. Pray deeply to God for forgiveness for those sins. He will know you committed them, but he will judge your soul on whether you fully realized you had done wrong and asked to be forgiven. Do it now, for tomorrow or even tonight, may be too late.
I want to thank all of you for all the prayers and wishes. Every single one of you are special to me. I cannot possible show you how much it has meant and continually means to me. God and you people are keeping me in the fight. I so appreciate all of you. I am truly a blessed man.
I am scared traveling this next road of darkness. It will most likely be a much darker one than before. They tell me I should lose all my hair this time, be more sick near the end of this 18 week cycle than before. I should lose a ton of weight as well.
If I know one single thing on earth........I absolutely know God is close and if it is my time to go, I am ready! But right now, God is telling me to get ready to confront the devil face to face again. Be ready to fight, bleed and hurt. He is telling me the devil has control of this earth and the devil uses this terrible disease to get people to lose Faith. I say, the devil is wasting his time with me. If the horned one does take me down, he is gonna take some full flat hard punches to his ugly mug! I guarantee it.
Anyhoo, I am going out and about today to enjoy one more day of feeling good, as who knows how many more I may have, before it gets ugly.
Thanks again to everyone of you. I gain power in your words, your prayers and just knowing you care.
May God Bless you all!
Jonny, the life lover
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