Oh Boy! Update 8.20.24
Well, my dear friends, I have sad news.
I just left the hospital after talking with my lung surgeon.
Here it is.
Surgery next Wednesday to remove 15% of my right lung with nodule. Also removing the two other nodules (1 other one in lung, 1 in lymph node by lung)
After surgery, chemo again and radiation.
Ha, the devil wants to fight some more! I'm up for it! I figure sooner or later he will give up.... but it looks to be later!
I asked the doctors again regarding running, and he did not hesitate to say that "running hurts can**r. It you are able, keep it up, go for it". 🥰
I guess I will have to see if I can win my age group in foot races without a total lung! (Bad joke intended)
Seriously, I'm not sure what this means, other than I still have a chance, though that chance seems to get a little smaller as things happen.
I will use the next 6 days to mentally and physically prepare the best I can. I am sure the road will be long and dark....but God will shine a light for me in the dark of times. I'm sure of it. He always has.
Today, as I was explained my situation, I wanted to break down and scream as loud as I could.....but I did not want the devil to see me panic. It hurt though....it hurt all the way to my soul. It is hard now to concentrate on other things, because my memory of that past dark road comes back vivid and clear. It saddens my heart.
But I know myself and I know my soul....that I do not carry a white flag of surrender on my body. Never have and never will.
The devil can eventually take my body, but he will never get my soul. He is just plain mean to take part of my lung! My lung does him absolutely no good to take, but he's like that. He takes from us just to cause pain, torture, doubt and to lose Faith!
I'm gonna gear up and get ready for 6 more days. I'm gonna run me some more and live me some more too, until then. My clock is ticking very loudly now.
I feel the cold bitter wind coming at me, but I'm gonna turn up the heat from all the prayers I have been getting. 🙏
You can guarantee I am looking the evil devil right square in his nasty eyes and saying to him "bring it on you freak, let's light this candle, I shall smash you like the cockroach you are".
I will again post updates as I go through this terrible journey, because it helps me to cope. Thanks for traveling with me. I never feel alone with my friends right beside me.
I love you and thank you for helping me through this crazy journey.
May God Bless You All
Jonny 8.0, ready to light the candle...again.
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